fuuckitsyen:

khounstipated:

1. So my boyfriend, Mark, wrote 3 pages of things he remembered and told me not to open it until my birthday, so I finally did, when he was with me
2. That little pocket thing holds the rose flower petal from when he first asked me out. it reads: Keep this rose pedal & hold it when you’re lonely or look up to the sky at night. I will be looking at the orion’s belt… 
3. Literally the first picture we ever took together, the night we met
4. The group picture of him and I at Halloween Haunt on October 29th
5. The first time we privately webcammed omg
6. The first time we made eggs together in his kitchen
7. The first time we went to San Francisco together
8. / 9. The first few .gifs we made with each other

Man, I read the letter he wrote me while holding his hand so I wouldn’t tear up, but I couldn’t help it. It was like I was struggling to breathe. I was literally gripping so hard onto you, I just didn’t want to let go.

I’m moving further away from you, and it’s going to be a little hard for me to cope with the fact that I won’t be able to physically touch you. We’ll be in a long distance relationship, but god damn it, I WON’T LET ANYTHING OR ANYONE COME BETWEEN US, AND I KNOW YOU WON’T EITHER. 

I love you so much it hurts, I could write so much but I cannot hold my feels oh lawd I love you so much. Being without you jfc how the fuck could i do that omg you now this was supposed to be more deep but then i realized i want to call you and eh tell you my feels too hehe okay idk bye

awwwww